Open Letter

Dear really crappy vet hospital,

I am in an awe for words on what assholes you all are. Finding out earlier tonight while half way through my internship that you are terminating me is total crap. I worked hard, and always did my best. I cleaned every day, asked questions, and was polite to everyone. For you to terminate me because I didn't "fit in with the other girls at the practice" is total shit. Those people yelled at me for no reason, nor did they ever give me good or bad advice with anything. No one ever had the balls to tell me I was doing anything wrong the entire four weeks I was there. You took the cheep way out and instead of helping me, terminated me without really explaining why. Apparently there was a target on my back from week one, and no one told me then either. Apparently I am learning the hard way how to graduate.

You think you might have won, but one day you will be sorry you don't have me working for you. Mark my words, I am better then you gave me credit for.

Sincerely,

Rachel

P.S. Learn how to take better care of your patients. As in, not playing favorites - and being there for every animal that comes into your office.

Dear Mom,

Lately, I find myself staring into Reggie's eyes and asking him what the meaning to life is. I'm searching for a soulful response, but am always given the look back saying, I really don't know either.

Gosh I miss you. I know if I asked you what the meaning of life is, you'd have something inspiring to say. I'd be in aw of your wisdom, and ponder often about what you said. If only I could just have words of encouragement from you. I don't handle change well. We both know that without a doubt. As a 13 year old girl I couldn't sleep over at a friends house, because I couldn't stand sleeping somewhere else besides my bed. I'd call you right when it was time to go to bed crying. I wanted to go home.

That feeling has never left me. Working at xango was like being in a very nice room with a king size bed, and the air at a crisp 68 degrees. Leaving seemed easy enough, although now at my externship I'm in a very unfamiliar place. I find myself wanting to cry in the bathroom, because I feel so out of place. I am starting from the ground up. It is silly to feel this way though. Just like my friends house, the new hospital I am at treats me well. The people are nice, and so far I haven't been yelled at by a doctor. So far I am doing well. Trying my hardest, but yet still feeling like I am falling short somehow. I come home thinking about how I could have done things better. I can't enjoy my time with Brandon, because I am too busy thinking about what I will have to do tomorrow. I want to shed everything off me when I leave that place for the day. I want to come home and feel recharged for the next day. I want to call you and cry over the phone over how much I hate change. I want to hear you sympathize with me and my situation, then tell me I can get through this. That most likely everyone has felt the way I do now.

For now I'll write you this letter and hope somewhere you are reading it. I'll trust in myself that I am doing the right thing, and wherever this path leads me will be the correct one. That is what you'd want me to do. Although, all of this would be a lot easier if Reggie could just tell me the meaning of life.

I love you with everything that I am.

-Rachel

Boys Night Out

My boys all got a make over.

It all started when I had the urge to give Frankie some red nails.

Arn't they pretty?

Reggie looks sassy in orange.

Brandon chose the dainty sky blue. (Ignore the crappy paint job)

I'm lucky to have such secure men in my life. Who let me frantically paint their nails when I have the urge.

Here's The Scoop

Me and Xango are dunzo.

Today was my last day after six years of working at that place. I have my externship coming up, and couldn't work out a schedule that would fit work and school into my life. So, work eliminated my position, sort of making a choice for me in the right direction. This entire thing is positive. I am so grateful to not be working there, and to moving on to things I love much more - like Vet Medicine for instance!

So, this coming Monday I start my externship at Sugarhouse Vet Hospital. I can't wait to do something I love, and learn new things. I can't wait to be in surgeries and take blood. It is funny how life works out. Answers to my prayers were given today. I am thankful, thankful, thankful!

A fresh new start is exactly what I need in life. As my sweet Grandma put it "Life is about growth and moving forward. If there is no change in your life, then you need to reevaluate." She is so smart.

P.S. I have cute dogs.

Are You Out There? It's Me Rachel

Do I still have blogging buddies? I'm missing you all. Is it because I'm boring? Give me a good topic to blog about, and let me know you are still there, friend.

Anyone? Anyone?

I'm A Blogger (Sorta)

I seriously just don't know what to say. Somehow it is already July 15th, and my brother is turning the big 16 this weekend. Where does all the time go?

I have been spending my time with friends, family, reading, going to the dog park, and kissing my dogs until they can't stand it anymore. The weather has been so great, I stay up until one in the morning, watching the sun go down every night. Of course I also spend time with my adorable husband. Can't forget that.

Although life is good, I often find myself day dreaming about how I never have to work and I live my life as I please. As in "Oh, it is Tuesday! I feel like flying to Vegas for the night to watch the night life." And I would do it, because I could!

I would buy this big house, and spend lots of money in the decor. Making it feel like home. I'd visit my mom more often, and bring her flowers every Thursday. The dogs would go everywhere with me, and people will start to say around the city "There's Rachel again with those two crazy pups!" I'd sit in the sun and let it melt away the bad. I'd swim in pools drinking any cold beverage I could find. In my spare time I'd volunteer at different shelters, doing what I could for homeless animals.

Yeah, life is perfect in my day dreams. If I close my eyes tight enough, I can hear the ocean tide and seagulls chirping.

Friday Photo

I'm having a good picture day, which is a must share.

I'll post about the 4th of July... sometime.